the Secret

So I have finally succumbed and am in the process of reading The Secret. I like the idea and thought of it, but Im a Capricorn. How am I supposed to not worry, to not thing the worst and to not judge. I am judgy mc judgy. It is something I am becoming a lot more aware of, and definitely something I am trying to fix. I read back on my posts and I am very aware how it is quite negative and all about my weight and trying to change myself. I am slowly letting that go. For so many years I have built up this idea in my head of who/what I want to be, but I am slowly coming to grips with just refining me. I think the best example of it is Khloe Kardashian Odom. She is gorgeous, has this constant pressure from the media with her weight, is extremely out there, loud and foul mouthed. BUT, she is an incredible role model, a wonderful pseudo parent for her siblings and happy to be herself. She is a fantastic wife, intelligent, beautiful and great business woman and doesn't make apologies for being who she is. OK so I have posted quite a lot on here about changing, refining, I am not saying that I'm forgetting that. I am saying that I still want to be me. I want to be the loud me, the shy me, the foul mouthed me, but I want to look good, and be respected doing it. And it means hard work. And it means taking the time to focus on me and a lot less focus on others.

So that's where the secret comes in. I am going to make the rounds of a whole heap of books in the coming weeks (College is just about up for the term) and I intend to use the time wisely. I graduate in just over 3 months and will be helping others find the strength to fix their issues, it's now time I sort my own out. The first I am working on is just being more positive and less judgemental. To be too busy working on me to think or talk about others. This will be a hard one at home when mum wants to talk.

Goals for the week ahead

1. Less Judgemental

2. Lots more Positive

3. More loving to D

4. Less criticizing D, and less negative talk

Physical Goals

5. 3 x Gym Sessions

6. Hair Treatment x 2

7. Face mask - find where one is, apply!

8. Makeup at least 3 times before Next Wednesday

I think they are attainable...lots of them though! But I am putting in hair mask as I type.

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge


Why am I doing it? to complete something, to make a habit, to show myself I can stick to something. I never can. I used to have so much dedication, so much determination and drive. Ive lost it. I need to remind myself that if I set my mind to something, I can follow through and complete it.

I am at a junction with so much change, I needed to know that I can commit to it. I can commit to get this website up and running, I can commit to getting stock made and start selling. I can commit to overhauling our lives.

Day 24 - a bit of a mix up

Ok, so I really dont have the energy, emotionally or physically to do day 24 today, I will either post up tonite, or do tomorrow. So I will do day 25

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

This pile of paper just came out of the 'enviro' bag. By the way I dont have a fine, its just my rego sticker.

inside my 'handbag' yes that is a can of tuna and strapping tape!

As you can see from the pics, I dont even carry a handbag. I dont want to spend the money and buy a tote, I should tho.  ok, so lets itemise what is in it:


wallet, phone, 2 x payslips, rego sticker, sewing pattern, notebook, diary, organiser, bills, catalogues, the mornings mail, glasses, girly things, can of tuna, 2 x coffee satchets, headphones, hairbands (a whole pack), a nail file, a container of shake mix, moisturiser, comb, hair clip, mints, foundation, a sharpener (huh?) and then my makeup bag and handbag.


Contents of these bags:
usb key, mints, deoderant, 2 xlighters (I will just mention that I dont smoke), body spray, a pen, rechargeable batteries, a safety pin, earrings, oil control lotion, moisturiser, eye shadow, lip gloss, mascara, pressed foundation, concealer, eyeliner, a liquid foundation, another hair clip, makeup mirror,  a makeup brush and finally keys and my bottle of water. 


Ok yes I know I am rediculous!!! Im pretty sure its all just laziness. I looked at it all this morning, and was going to clear it out, and then gathered I would do it at work. I didnt realise that I would have to bare it all today. So yes, tonight it will be emptied, and I might drop in and grab a proper bag. 

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have


I have lots of plans, lots of dreams and so many goals and probably too many to list here. 


1. Have my family. I want at least 2 children
2. Have security for my family. This is my most important thing. 
3. Be able to work from home. 
4. Be fit and healthy (probably more a 3 than a 4)
5. Get portraits done of me and hubby
6. I want to own a big big home. I dont want a new one, I want an old one. Something that I can really sink my teeth into and refurbish myself. Decorating from the yard, the floor to the attic. 

Probably more the bottom one, but just not so broken.