My Angel,
It is hard to put in to words how wonderful, and giving you are, and how special you are to D & I. I don't believe many have seen or understand the heartache we go through watching people around us have children, knowing there may be a chance we will never experience it ourselves. We have tried constantly to keep upbeat around others, to make sure that family and friends do not see the grief we feel at missing out on such a special gift. And while you sit, seeming to most to be not bothered by those around you, you see it all. You came to me the other day, at a low time. Again, another pregnancy was announced. You knew the pain I would be feeling. And then you offered us the greatest gift of all, a child.
It is not for any reason, except for fear and love, that we say no. How can we ask that of you? How can we put you through a process which will tear your heart in two? I would be honored to have a child that you carried, that you nurtured and have given life to, but how can I live knowing that for me to have this child, you have to live seeing a child you gave birth to raised by another?
I want you to know that you will always have a very, very special place in our hearts, and we have not brushed off your offer with ease. I will always stand by your side and fight for what ever you want in life, and will support your decisions and your choices, because you have given me hope. I know that no matter what way we will eventually have to go, we will always have that final option. For that we are eternally grateful.
With much love
Us xoxox
So there it is, my letter.
yep Im blessed
