Ok so we are only a week out from xmas and what happens???? well, our car has gone kaput. So somehow we are going to have to get the money together to still do xmas, but also get the car fixed. Such is life I suppose. Still sux tho.
But anyway enough of crap.
We are having some awesome storms here lately. Massive rippers. We have another one coming now, I can feel all the tension in the air, it makes my eyes and head ache. We have a 25th to go to tonite, so hopefully it dies down soon.
Mr D has been his grumpy self the last two days. He is at this moment asleep. His bi-polar is playing up and he is not sleeping at night. Doing very well sleeping during the day though. Its driving me nuts. Im going to let him sleep though, hopefully he'll wake up in a better mood. I am starting to wonder though how much of a good idea it was for him to give up the meds. It hasnt helped us in the way we thought it would. He says that he doesnt feel like he in a fog anymore, but it sure as hell isnt helping with moodiness, aggression and sleeping. Plus Im more than a lil worried the panic attacks will start again. The spending is definitely starting again. Grrr....maybe he'll be able to sort his shit out. At the moment he has no interest in trying though.
With me, well Im getting more than a little upset about the baby and weight stuff. I know I have to lose weight to have a baby, but its so freaking difficult. Especially having 4 other adults in the house that eat so much crap. And Im so sick of hearing that I shouldnt diet, I should just eat healthy. Well news flash, thats obviously not working. I put 10kgs on every year trying to just eat 'healthy'. The doctor has spoken about weight loss surgery, and part of me really wants to do it, another part has no interest in it, and is so disgusted in myself about having to consider it. And I know so many of my problems will go if I can just even lose 10kg. Though I really want to lose 40-50.
Our goal this week was to start a Michael Thurman-ish type diet. Low car broken down into 5 meals, with 45 mins exercise daily and 3 Litres of water. We havent gotten anywhere close to that. It doesnt help that xmas is upon us. But we are both feeling the pressure of his mum arriving on Friday. They go on so much about D's weight. He feels so much pressure from them, and when they leave I am left with the consequences. I am dreading when she leaves this time. We go through a month of him over dramatising everything until I snap and tell him to get over it. I dont think we could survive living closer to her.
We also have to set up the office this week into a 4th bedroom. We will move the computer out and into probably our room, and put a bed in here. Thankfully it means that we will actually clean out the office. It is greatly in need. We have been wanting to rearrange in here anyway. After new years will be our chance. I might try to pic up another desk so that we can put both in here. D is starting his own blog now, and spending more time on his website, and I have mine and the 3 websites, plus uni. So definitely time to make room.
I have been thinking of making a second website, and doing more home deco/organisation. But Im guessing that will come together later if I need it to. The plan is to have two websites, one for organisation, and one for etiquette and grooming. The organisation one, for homes, the etiquette ones for people like me. Basically my journey from crap to fab. Though I could probably put that into this one. I just would like to eventually do talks and stuff on it. Probably best to put on here, keep things simple.
