the Secret

So I have finally succumbed and am in the process of reading The Secret. I like the idea and thought of it, but Im a Capricorn. How am I supposed to not worry, to not thing the worst and to not judge. I am judgy mc judgy. It is something I am becoming a lot more aware of, and definitely something I am trying to fix. I read back on my posts and I am very aware how it is quite negative and all about my weight and trying to change myself. I am slowly letting that go. For so many years I have built up this idea in my head of who/what I want to be, but I am slowly coming to grips with just refining me. I think the best example of it is Khloe Kardashian Odom. She is gorgeous, has this constant pressure from the media with her weight, is extremely out there, loud and foul mouthed. BUT, she is an incredible role model, a wonderful pseudo parent for her siblings and happy to be herself. She is a fantastic wife, intelligent, beautiful and great business woman and doesn't make apologies for being who she is. OK so I have posted quite a lot on here about changing, refining, I am not saying that I'm forgetting that. I am saying that I still want to be me. I want to be the loud me, the shy me, the foul mouthed me, but I want to look good, and be respected doing it. And it means hard work. And it means taking the time to focus on me and a lot less focus on others.

So that's where the secret comes in. I am going to make the rounds of a whole heap of books in the coming weeks (College is just about up for the term) and I intend to use the time wisely. I graduate in just over 3 months and will be helping others find the strength to fix their issues, it's now time I sort my own out. The first I am working on is just being more positive and less judgemental. To be too busy working on me to think or talk about others. This will be a hard one at home when mum wants to talk.

Goals for the week ahead

1. Less Judgemental

2. Lots more Positive

3. More loving to D

4. Less criticizing D, and less negative talk

Physical Goals

5. 3 x Gym Sessions

6. Hair Treatment x 2

7. Face mask - find where one is, apply!

8. Makeup at least 3 times before Next Wednesday

I think they are attainable...lots of them though! But I am putting in hair mask as I type.

Personal Excellence + Healthy life challenge

Ideal Vision of health, fitness and lifestyle


My Ideal vision – I am around a 10-12, and fit. I don’t want to be buff, I want to be toned but still feminine. I want to be able to run 10km easily and at least 3 times a week. All up around 20-30km running a week, and cycling 3 times per week. Lifestyle would be up early every morning and doing an hour of exercise before work.



What do you want to accomplish at the end of the 21 days

Over the next 21 days I want to lay the foundations of a healthy lifestyle. Getting up and walking, starting with 10mins of a morning and working up to 30 minutes. If possible I would like to fit in another 30 minutes of an afternoon with the dogs. With food I want to cut out the crap food and get to a point where I am eating 80% unprocessed foods. Cutting out majority of dairy products except for some milk and yoghurt and small amounts of cheese.



Get ready. What are 3-5 things that you can do now that will help

The most helpful would be to find a job close to home. Other than that, preparing food, getting up 30 mins earlier to have breakfast and go for a walk.

I need to get up early enough to prepare breakfast and have a cup of tea. This is number 1 priority, otherwise I am too tempted to get something on the way into work. Breakfast could be weetbix, oats or toast with eggs. The other thing that is a must is preparing something for lunch, and having a snack. Whether it be a stirfry, steamed veg or salad. Snacks can be fruit, nuts or yoghurt.



Day 1. Drink 8 glasses of water. Daily requirements are 3.5Litres

Eeek this actually equates to 15 glasses of water. I need to start chugging. But this could also be why I am having so many issues like waking up feeling ill, being constantly hungry and fluid retention.



Day 2. Create Calorie List – use my fitness pal

Calorie list is pointless, I don’t really have general things that I eat constantly.



Day 3. Calculate Daily expenditure. BMR 2152 - + 1.2 for sedentary lifestyle = 2582



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Good morning



So far today I got up at 5.30, took my puppies for a 15 min walk (starting with babysteps) had weetbix for breaky. Just devoured a tuna salad with wholemeal roll for lunch and will most likely have a stirfry for dinner.



On the drinking side of things, I am going for 2L a day for the first week, 3L the second week and working up to 3.5L. I have just bought some cordial to add to it. I know its not the best of ideas, but it does help it go down, and I have already nearly finished the first litre.



I have logged my calories for yesterday and today. So far I am at 900calories for today and yesterday I finished up on 1783. so a definite deficit.

Health and Fitness Challenge

Twitter: mobylovescoffee
Age:29 (in a few days)
Location: Brisbane, Australia

Also include your challenge goals in terms of your:

My non- scale victory - my boardies...I want to fit in them before Summer is over, I don't want to fit in them at all next year :)


My goals with exercise is 15 min walk each day, 45 min exercise vid or wiifit x3 per week


Keep calories under 1600, keep track via my fitness pal

Starting Weight: way too much..lets just say +50 for now

Target Challenge Weight Loss: 15kg

Day 9 - Tackle Procrastination

1. Identify something you’ve been putting off in the past week/month/years.
   • I have been procrastinating about losing weight, for the last few years
2. Answer this question: Why am I procrastinating on this?
• Why do I procrastinate about this? Its too hard....Im trying to find the easy way out instead of putting the effort into it, its something I do with everything

Key Motivations

Feel better about myself - feel alive again

Health

Baby

Marriage

Action Plan

Diet - Cut out the crap

Exercise - Walking - Bike

Getting healthy

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I have my appointment with my gyno tomorrow. I have failed to lose weight (I gained 7kg) and I am really unhealthy. I have been following a lady on twitter who has done a detox for the last week or so and is doing quite well. It's time I did another. It has been probably about 4-5 years since I have done a proper cleanse. I keep wanting to but never really follow it through. I am super unhealthy, living on pain killer and have to break this cycle. I will be doing fruit, veg, nuts and leave white meats. I am hauling D in for the ride. Thankfully we freakin get paid tonite. 

On the home front, I rehomed my beautiful Bella last night. 

We had to get rid of her friend a few weeks ago as he kept digging and we are in a rental house. Since then she has become lonely and moping. She unfortunately also decided she was going to attack small animals. Since we are about to start fertility treatments we realised a. we dont have the time she needs, and b. do we want her around a baby. We have been keeping her inside so honestly it was time for her to be placed somewhere else. We found a wonderful lady who had a 1 year old boy who needed a friend. She is super wonderful with her boy, and I believe Belle is going to love her new home. Though this didnt stop me sobbing last night having to say goodbye. I am very very grateful to the wonderful lady for helping us, but feel a massive amount of guilt that I gave away my girl. 

Housewise, we are doing ok.Kitchen has been cleaned each night, and more and more crap is being put away. I am hoping to sort out the office this weekend, and that will be the last room done. From there it is just a matter of tidying each day, and doing a thorough, deep clean. I am hoping to do this over the next few weekends before xmas. This will be one less thing taking up my time and energy. 

Day 2 - Ok Im really not liking this one

Yep I give in for this one. I think its more a business type blog challenge. Im sure Ill be able to find better ones later.

So my first project...health. I am severely laking. I am uber tired at the moment and havent been taking my PCOS meds cos I havent been bothered going to the pharmacy, and have been suffering from allergies. I got rid of those issues a few years ago (the allergy ones) with a juice cleanse, so that is my plan for next week. I am also thinking about cutting down the TV next week. have a free weekend next weekend and only an hour in the evening, or no tv till after 7pm. The main issue is D having his op, he is still recovering. So maybe keep the TV Challenge for another week or so.

So plan for next week
Gym Monday, Wednesday Friday, Sauna on Tuesday.
Juice, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and maybe Wednesday

Body Brush Daily
Facemask Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday
Body Scrub Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday

2L water daily

30 min walk in the evenings

I definitely want this to be about health. .Afterwards focusing on more fruits, salads and vegies. Cut out the coffee, switch to herbal teas and go from there. We are looking at no red meat in our diets anyway, so stick to fish and chicken. It isnt too much differnt from what we have been trying to do for the last few weeks anyway.

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then

This pic is from this year. Heavier but happier. Below is the pic from last year. I still recognise my face in the pic last year, I seem to have lost it this year.

I was a lot healthier last year also. This year I have suffered pretty badly because of the PCOS. I have had a few cysts burst, and major issues with ears and face infections due to sinus and allergy issues. My health is slowly getting better, but it has definitely taken its toll on weight and even just the clarity of my skin. 

Emotionally, I am a lot happier this year though. Yesterday hubby and I celebrated 5 years together, and are the happiest we have ever been. Life is good. We dont have a lot of money, we dont spend a lot of time with other people, but we are content. Hopefully next year everything will merge and not only will we continue being happy, but hopefully I will be a lot healthier also.