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Today is a day for depression awareness. This subject is very close to my heart as my husband has Bipolar. We are both very very open about his Bipolar, but this will never make it easy to live and deal with depression each day of our lives. While I do not really believe awareness is needed, (we all have our battles), we definitely need to stop keeping such life threatening illnesses in the dark. People need to feel comfortable showing their weaknesses and asking for help, and many more others need to have compassion enough to offer it.

Sunday and the motivation kicks

Ok so it's Sunday night and motivation has kicked back it....where the crap has it been hiding for the week just gone??!!?

Spent a great weekend catching up with an old but much loved friend and her super awesome lil man. It was great and I really enjoyed socialising with someone other than hubby or family. I managed to also get an assignment done, do a lil shopping, and spend some time with my gorgeous D.

So plans for the coming week:
 Detox - lots of juices, veg and salad
 A lil walking, even just 15mins a day...just get moving
 Wake up an hour before I leave each day and prepare for the day

Half my problem is that Im lazy and enjoy my time with hubs too much, the other half is that I don't prepare...and like they say 'fail to prepare and prepare to fail'...yeah well, it's true!

Also caught up with one of my besties this arvo and it was great. I loved just sitting and chatting with her, she lets me just vent, listens to my crap and I walk out feeling like a weight has been lifted. I have been feeling so stressed lately, I forget that just having that person to chat to can make it all so much better.

So thanks huni...you're awesome!! xoxox

everything seems so hard...

well a bit of a woe is me post...I guess I had to do it somewhere, and twitter is probably getting sick of hearing it..

We are moving house, back in with my folks for a lil bit to try and save money, but things have been pretty shit going.
we moved into mums early..BIG MISTAKE...it left us 3 weeks to pack up and move. But I also got hit with a mass of college assignments, and D got rostered on every weekend. so instead mum and lil sis ended up packing everything for us, we called in removalists and had hoped just to have to clean the house. well....we kept running out of boxes (I wasnt there to throw stuff out), the removalists didnt take all of our stuff, so we still had to hire a truck, and the cleaning has taken 3 days and the real estate still isnt happy. So we are at the last weekend. I have a varnish stain on the carpet from our side table (crap!) and just over it. So I am leaving the real estate to call in a cleaner. Tomorrow I will go up and try WD-40 on the stain (Im all out of other ideas), wipe over a few others cupboards and leave the walls to the professionals. Time to bite the bullet and just fail! I hate how fussy Delfin is about its houses, we have never had this drama before!

So we are moving forward. I am on my second last semester at college, that has started, I thankfully finished summer semester...thank god! and now for new adventures. we are focusing on trying to pay all our bills out and buy a house. Fingers crossed we can do it. Now to learn to be super frugal and get cracking! from next week we should have all our bills paid and then to focus on paying out the credit cards. Well that and make our room here more liveable.

Work is getting a bit tense, we are close to the end of our contracts, so it wont be long until I have to find another one. I would really love a government position, but will have to see what I can find. I want the stability of government, the money from government and the ability to go further in gov. But we will see what happens over the next few months.

Something I am toying with as well is going vegetarian with the option to go vegan later. D is really bad at being able to process meat, his system just cant do it, so Im thinking it might be a good idea. We both hate how inhumanely animals are treated in the process and could live a little happier knowing we dont have anything do to with it.

Just stuff to think about.

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Grounding

I am struggling at the moment with a bit of the blues...I think all the stress lately with money, fertility, Granddad's op and the stuff with Dave has brought me down a little.

I need to get my feet in the ocean or my hands in the earth and draw a bit of energy. I am thinking of getting hubby to join me Friday arvo in Wynnum for some fish and chips near the ocean. But until then, here is a bit of a grounding exercise. Its amazing that I know when I need to get back to nature. I can feel when I havent grounded enough, when energy just isnt right. And even more amazing that we can live a lifestyle where our bare feet rarely touch the soil.

Notice the soles of your feet, your toes, in-between your toes, the top of your feet, the back of your ankle.

Do they feel hot? or cold? Do they hurt? Are they numb? Do you feel your blood circulating through them? Are they feeling tired?

Don't judge how they feel - just notice how they feel. Wiggle your toes. How does that feel?

Once you have a made a strong connection with your feet you may then move your attention upwards to your ankle... then switch focus to your lower legs, onto your knee caps, behind your knees, your thighs, and so on.

Keep reminding yourself not to rush.

Allow yourself to breathe throughout the scanning process, especially as you come to any areas of discomfort (stressed muscles, soreness, etc.) or at any spot that feels like there may be an energy block.

Once you have moved through your torso and up to your neck, drop back down to your fingertips, move your attention to the hands, up your arms and shoulders, returning your attention once again to your neck before finishing up with your focus on face and scalp. 

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