the Secret

So I have finally succumbed and am in the process of reading The Secret. I like the idea and thought of it, but Im a Capricorn. How am I supposed to not worry, to not thing the worst and to not judge. I am judgy mc judgy. It is something I am becoming a lot more aware of, and definitely something I am trying to fix. I read back on my posts and I am very aware how it is quite negative and all about my weight and trying to change myself. I am slowly letting that go. For so many years I have built up this idea in my head of who/what I want to be, but I am slowly coming to grips with just refining me. I think the best example of it is Khloe Kardashian Odom. She is gorgeous, has this constant pressure from the media with her weight, is extremely out there, loud and foul mouthed. BUT, she is an incredible role model, a wonderful pseudo parent for her siblings and happy to be herself. She is a fantastic wife, intelligent, beautiful and great business woman and doesn't make apologies for being who she is. OK so I have posted quite a lot on here about changing, refining, I am not saying that I'm forgetting that. I am saying that I still want to be me. I want to be the loud me, the shy me, the foul mouthed me, but I want to look good, and be respected doing it. And it means hard work. And it means taking the time to focus on me and a lot less focus on others.

So that's where the secret comes in. I am going to make the rounds of a whole heap of books in the coming weeks (College is just about up for the term) and I intend to use the time wisely. I graduate in just over 3 months and will be helping others find the strength to fix their issues, it's now time I sort my own out. The first I am working on is just being more positive and less judgemental. To be too busy working on me to think or talk about others. This will be a hard one at home when mum wants to talk.

Goals for the week ahead

1. Less Judgemental

2. Lots more Positive

3. More loving to D

4. Less criticizing D, and less negative talk

Physical Goals

5. 3 x Gym Sessions

6. Hair Treatment x 2

7. Face mask - find where one is, apply!

8. Makeup at least 3 times before Next Wednesday

I think they are attainable...lots of them though! But I am putting in hair mask as I type.

Another week down

Yeah I've been a lil tragic. I am seriously struggling to keep on track. I have no motivation to exercise, and food has been pretty bad. Still a bit better, just not real good. The last two weeks have been the worst, but alot of that has been bad planning. I have been having cup of soups for lunch, and generally eggs/or toast for breakfast. I have been sneaking in a few too many cold coffees though, so that needs to stop. Back to toast and cottage cheese for breakfast tomorrow with cup of soup for lunch. And I will ensure that I make a proper coffee tomorrow.

On the bright side, mum and I are starting a new business venture...ironically cupcakes and lollies. HAH! hopefully in 6 months once I have my counselling qualifications we will be able to start up a store. Then I might be able to incorporate my counselling room in the same building. I am hoping to have a showroom as such in the front. Displaying the cakes, and lolly buffets, and then incorporate some other stuff. This will be a good base to take orders, do prep work and also have someone there to meet and greet clients as they come in the door. It also makes me a lil more comfortable having clients and knowing that there is someone around if needed.

I am also looking at specialising my clinic towards sexual health and relationships. It's something that I have always wanted to work with, and think that I am open and have a healthy outlook on this sort of stuff to help people. It's all starting to get a lil fun and exciting.