Fears

There are many things I fear in this world, some rational, some very irational, but I have had to face many in 2010.

Some of my fears
1. Losing my husband
2. Losing my sister/mum
3. Being poor
4. Being homeless
5. Living with my folks again.

My husband and I have been close to splitting a few times, but over the last year we seem to have welded ourselves together much more firmly. So I feel quite content.

We came very close to losing my sister in June. She broke her neck during an epileptic seizure. The broken neck was left undiagnosed for 4 days by  our hospital and was picked up by our local GP. He is our angel.

In February the Insulation scheme in Australia went bust. Both hubby and I  and my family were involved. We were left with nothing at a moments notice. We were without jobs for 6 weeks and came very close to not being able to afford to pay our rent or buy food. It is nearing Christmas and we are only just getting on top of everything now. I NEVER want to be back in that position. This time last year we had a few thousand tucked away, bills paid without thinking, they just came out of our account, and we were quite content about going into xmas. This year we live week to week and are scared stiff that we wont be able to afford it. But such is life, we have a roof over our heads.

And to top all this off, my folks are moving in with us on Saturday. Dont get me wrong, I love my mum to bits, but my dad is an alcoholic and we clash big time. I have very definite ideas on how he should treat my mum, unfortunately he doesnt agree. So it will be a big learning experience in patience. That and hoping that we use the opportunity to save money and that they get back on their feet sooner rather than later.

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