A new day

So I start my new job today, at a designers of womens clothing. So here I am surrounded by vety thin, artsy pretty people and the first thing I do is spill coffee on my white shirt..grrr. But Im here earlier than my teacher for the next few days, so I'm killing time. I started thinking about how today is a new start, and what I need a new start from. Well lets see, Im in need of losing quite a lot of weight, my skin is terrible, my diet is tertible, and as a friend affectionately says, my house is always in need of a clean. So where did I start to go wrong? Up until I was around 22, I was a healthy 12-14, I ate well, I exercised, and I was fanatical about having a clean home. Where did I lose all my motivation?? I can pinpoint that it all started when I got back from the states in 04, and it was caused by depression, but surely I havent been depressed for 5 years.... How do I get my mojo back?


- Blessed be
Moby xoxo

Unemployed and depressed

So its been awhile. The government pulled the insulation scheme so as of friday, the week before last, hubby and I are unemployed. It is one of the worst feelings. There is no stability and once our money runs out, I have no idea how we will pay rent. I have been for stacks of interviews, and I am crossing my fingers that one comes through shortly. Hubby on the otherhand is not doing so well. He is struggling to even get an acknowledgement (ignore my spellung pls) to his applications. Its such a tough world out there now for jobseekers. We had this grand plan to go to cleaning if we didnt have anything by tomorrow, yet the only cleaning position requires u to wait two months for payment. Hello Im desperate here!!! On the bright side I did get an interview for government temp work, only issue is that it means a pay cut of around $25K per year.... That so sux. So enuff of the whinging. Hubby and I are surprisingly good at home together. The house is staying fairly clean, and I have time for uni. Now all I need is a lil motivation to drop a few kg's.



- Blessed be
Moby xoxo

Cheer up emo girl

This used to be a super long post.... Might i just say that this is not friendly!!!!

- Blessed be
Moby xoxo

The wellness coach

So today was another bad day, I was sick, it was uber stressful and of course I ate bad. Not just a little bad, Im talking half a cheesecake bad. So well it got me thinking, what do I really want to do? My ultimate goal (in regards to health) is to be eating a mediteranean type diet and running and teaching yoga. Well I am so far away from that! So I looked online (as I do always when I want to know stuff) and came across the term 'wellness coach'. My question is; what is it, and are they really relevant??what is the point? It seems to be a cross between a dietician and a personal trainer. I think I need to do a bit of research. I want to do more research on dieticians too. Try to get more into a work field that I find more fulfilling. Its going to b at least another 4 years till I'll be a psychologist. Though I'm now thinking more counselling and nutrition. God I'm indecisive!!


- Blessed be
Moby xoxo

Ick

Well feeling pretty much like crap today. I suffer from PCOS and it has hit hard again this month. So sharb stabbing pains, sweats and queasiness that just wont go away. The rest of the week hasnt been too bad, but I'm getting to stressed. So life questions this week: how do I combat stress and how do I get my ass into gear and go lowcarb to keep the PCOS monster at bay??? So, so far for stress, I read. Lots and lots of reading. I'm close to failing uni, but at least I have been reading lots!! But im going to have to find some other ways too that dont include throwing away my husband. He is my buggest cause of stress. Either because of his moodiness, over reaction to the smallest thing, or being a butthead. So yeah i know he wont fix stuff, so I need to. With the lowcarb thing, I'm really not too sure. Whether i go full on into it or slowly ease into it. I know it balances out hormones, and it worked for me before, so yep i just have to get in there.


- Blessed be
Moby xoxo

Exhaustion., assignments and a two week waiy

So here I am again, hald way through my two week wait. For all of you who do not know what I mean, its the week between ovulation and being able to test for pregnancy. Its soooo nerve wracking, throw in two assignments and hell at work and we have one very tited, exhausted Kitty!! Uni is crap at the moment, concentration levels are extremely low, my assignments are all late and I'll b luck to scrape through this semester. Theres goes my 6.5 GPA. So I've hit a brick wall and yeah am not even making a dent. So what do I do? Fuck knows!!! Im crossing fingers that I have a little positive pregnancy test in a week, and that somehow my brain will work long enough to get my assignments done. Until then... Im out



- Blessed be
Moby xoxo

Hitting the post new year dip

Yep its that time of year again, the xmas decos have been put away, streamers and squealers have been thrown, and the new years reso's are already becoming a distant memory. Well in my case they are trying to.... But I wont let them goddamn it!!! I have been slack yesterday and today, I will admit it, but, we went to see Avatar 3D last night and had to recover today. A poor excuse I know, but oh well. Food is going ok, I am struggling to stay around 1200, but am managing around 1500. I need to make some smarter food choices, cravings though are a bastard!! I will get there though, and the weight will come off, I have to remember to be patient. Inregards to other areas of life, hmmmm, well my kitchen is staying clean. I have been making a few other little changes, but slow n steady wins the race. Anyway im off.. Time for sleep.


- Blessed be
Moby xoxo