Friends, Loyalty and finally growing up

A good friend of mine just ended a bad relationship, and curiously her sister has remained friends with the ex, even going out to pubs with them. It has me thinking...Is this socially acceptable, Morally, or even against some code of sisterly conduct?

My lil sister and I are very close, there is no way I would ever show her this much disrespect, on the account of me wanting to have a good time. If I knew that my sister exaggerated a little, but it was still a volatile situation, lil sis still wins. So what has happened in this situation?

As a sister there is really no bond like it. I can fight with her, disagree, and debate to our hearts content, but we love each other. We have each others back and beware anyone who tries to hurt her.

Ok so this is my reasoning basically is disrepectful, its disloyal and frankly just plain wrong.

Ok so theres my completely crap post, completely unformatted, unedited and needing a whole lot more structure.

ciao

The Queensland Floods January 2011

While the last week has been one of the most harrowing for Queensland, it has also been one of the most incredible. Not in the 'ooh how cool' way, but just because its something that will leave a lasting impression for life.

Monday 10th, got home from work - heard about the devastation in Toowoomba, and inland flood surge destroyed streets and killed many people. We went and picked up my cousin and her kids from Karalee, we got a message that Karalee was to be evacuated.

Tuesday 11th - I stayed home. Gathered I wanted to know what was going to happen, we were expecting this water to travel to Ipswich. 

Wednesday 12th - Flooding in Ipswich was expected about 2pm. We were not affected. Goodna underwater. My aunts house was devastated. She lost everything.

Thursday 13th - Flooding in Brisbane. Work went under. Was all pretty devastating.

Friday 14th - Went into work and cleaned. Weekend was spent doing similar.

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Inspiration - AJ Celi, gorgeous and 30, she looks gorgeous, put together and like an 'adult'

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Alyssa Milano - another 'put together' 30 year old. 

Go on...I dare YOU!!

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OK so the challenge we have set ourselves for the year is......5,000km's by either bike or treadmill. This will equate to about 14kms per day. So this will be from tomorrow. I have actually divided it up a bit, going for 50km for the first week and slowly working up to 120kms per week to fit it in, plus take into account my fitness level. The plan is that by the time we head to New Zealand at the end of the year that I am fit enough to walk up to the glaciers. 

At the moment I struggle walking up stairs so it will be pretty cool. I will be going back to low carb from tomorrow to try to shift some weight fast, but my focus is going to be on healthy eating and fitness. Once I have that sorted the weight should go down. I am booked in for the doctor on Thursday to go back on the pill. I know that this is counter productive to having babies, but I gather 6 months on it, my cycle is back to normal, hormones will be back to normal and the weight should stabilize. so fingers crossed it works to plan. 

My next thing is that in a few days I will be 28. 28 is my adult number. No longer a young 20, I am inching towards 30. And there is a lot I want to achieve before I am 30.

I have a lot of inspiration, and am thinking I want to have a vision board up in the office in the next few weeks. But here is my list...keep in mind I have 2 years before I am 30.

1. Look sophisticated and put together

2. Be healthy and at a healthy weight

3. Be buying a house with my hubby

4. Have started our family

5. Be set in a career. Working towards my degree

These are my main goals. This in my mind says I am 'on my way'.

So far meh!

I really hate to say this but sometimes I really get over my husband. I love him to bits but his moods are rediculous. And I don't say this believing I am perfect, or with out just a thin thought of it. When we have a house full of people tip-toeing around because he's in a mood over fuck all, there is a problem. His mother left a few days a go and let him know that he is too much like his father. I thought that maybe it had sunk in, but every day we are having the same issue. Him all of a sudden in a foul mood over the stupidest of things. New Years day is was because his shoulder was sore, so the world copped it. Yesterday who knows why, today because he feel shit about the house, so everyone else has to feel like shit. Its really not fair, and not fair that we have to live like this. I hate the fact that he has bipolar and he uses it as an excuse. I hate that he goes to see a counsellor and doesnt like that they tell him that he is being irrational, so he won't go back. I hate that he thinks its ok to keep going like this. Telling me every few weeks that he knows he fucks up but promises to fix it, then never does. Each time saying it will be different. Don't get me wrong, my husband can be fantastic, super fun and very loving. But I am sick to death of these moods. I hate having to worry about what he is going to say and who he is going to offend. let alone just having to live with it. He makes me feel like crap. His tirade this morning was the kitchen, he wanted it spotless. So he got in and did it. He then told me that he is taking over keeping the kitchen clean because he wants it perfect. This is the same man who will leave half eaten food, crumbs, dirty dishes anywhere he eats (and he eats anywhere) until I get the shits and eventually pick them up. He then goes on about other things that are dirty. He doesnt do any washing, cleans up only when it a spit or if I nag. And then has days like this. Im just over his drama and I dont know how to get him to snap out of it. He is so judgemental, narrow minded and just rude, and its starting to really piss me off.

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Happy New Years!! Well pre-new years anyway :)

2010 is nearly over and thank god for that!! 

I am ready to see the new year in, fresh with opportunities and hope. I have lots I want to accomplish in the new year, and the list is pretty endless but my main ones are these:

1. Live - enjoy each moment and make some memories

2. Get outside, spend some time being active

3. Stop swearing. 

So I think I can achieve these 3 things. Anything extra is a bonus!

Of Shamanic/Celtic Descent

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I have always known that I have been given 'the gift'. As a little girl I used to be scared that I made bad things happen, not realising that I was seeing a premonition of what was to come. I have been able to feel other peoples energy, and at times been drained from the negative ones and uplifted by the positive ones. I believe I am empathic, and know my journey in life is to help people. Whether this be through counselling, or what ever the world throws at me. 

But I also know that I have a lot to learn. There is a lot more to my journey than where I am now, having only dipped my fingers into a vast ocean. Because I have never thought I had anyone around me to teach me, I learn things as they come, having faith that I will somehow know the way. All this has really changed in the last few weeks.

I went to visit my aunt the other day. I dont see her often, maybe a few times a year. But on this visit she was telling me how it is a family gift, and strongest in the eldest child of each family. I am the oldest grandchild and the oldest and biologically only of my father. He is of Indian and Irish decent. It comes from his dad's side mainly (Indian), and has been a part of our family forever. Last night I learnt that my granddad has the gift also. He can see and communicate with the spirits. This is all a revelation to me. 

Anyway the last few nights I have been feeling very unsettled. I have been having dark (violent) thoughts, which if you know me, is completely out of character. I have also been hearing my name called, as well as something startling me and flicking my ears and back to wake me up. By yesterday afternoon I had had enough and called my aunt. I needed help. It wasnt something I had had to deal with before. Hubby wouldn't believe me if I told him, and who else could I turn to? 

So I dropped in there and we chatted. She showed me ways to protect myself, to guard my home and family, and find ways to receive the messages, but keep the black out. While we were chatting I learnt a few other things. I have a dream of blue crystal caves that resonate from my childhood. I feared this place. In my dreams I carried my father through in a glass coffin. I also have gone into deep meditations and gone to a cave on the side of a cliff, this cave was in the shape of an animal, with its teeth baring at front. During conversations I found my Aunt knew of these places. Apparently the blue crystal cave is a family sacred spot, and the animal cave is to do with our guides. These places have been significant dreams to me, and now I understand. But even more, it has provided me with proof that this is real. Its not us playing around anymore. That what I was feeling with this entity was real, there was something that was making me uncomfortable.

So last night I calmed myself, washed myself with salt and then laid down projecting my white pyramid. And do you know what, I finally slept. I had the most beautiful sleep. 

I know I still have so much to learn, but maybe Im getting there.