HI Im Kat....and I am the Queen of Excuses
Up until around 7 years ago when I met my hubby, I was sitting at a 16, but was still fairly active and pretty fit. I definitely proved being big didn't mean unfit. Then I met hubby and I was so absorbed in him that I didnt put myself first. Then came a very very rocky relationship while we worked out he had Bi-Polar, and without using it as an excuse it was difficult. But I let my unhappiness, my need to spend time with him, or my want to zone out and read to escape the world as an excuse to eat whatever and no longer exercise. I also matched my food portions with his already over sized food portions. Yup eating way too much and not exercising. So I started putting weight on, then PCOS really started to rear its ugly head and show all the painful horrid symptoms. So now 7 years later, I have pretty much all the symptoms of PCOS, I still eat badly, using the excuse that PCOS makes it impossible to lose weight anyway, and dont exercise as I have issues with my feet, and back issues from having a car accident. The funny thing is, the weight causes all of these things to be a problem.
Here come the next excuses, I work full time and study full time. Yes its busy. BUT...like everything I leave studying til last minute so I actually have heaps of time. And the latest one..I drive an hour each way to and from work...oh boohoo, Im home by 5 most days, that's heaps of time.
so here I am, nearly 30 and way too unhealthy. Hubby and I desperately want a family, but now suffer infertility, and we kept saying we needed to make changes, and after 6 years of pining for a child we are so far away from there.
I have now started making changes..and I want this to work. I want children, I want to be back in a size 12-14, and a want to have the energy to do all the things I want to do. eg hiking, exploring, kayaking, jogging, walking, cycling etc oh and a gorgeous wardrobe
I want to stop being lazy...cos that what it comes down to..I need to stop being LAZY.
The adventure starts now...
Up until around 7 years ago when I met my hubby, I was sitting at a 16, but was still fairly active and pretty fit. I definitely proved being big didn't mean unfit. Then I met hubby and I was so absorbed in him that I didnt put myself first. Then came a very very rocky relationship while we worked out he had Bi-Polar, and without using it as an excuse it was difficult. But I let my unhappiness, my need to spend time with him, or my want to zone out and read to escape the world as an excuse to eat whatever and no longer exercise. I also matched my food portions with his already over sized food portions. Yup eating way too much and not exercising. So I started putting weight on, then PCOS really started to rear its ugly head and show all the painful horrid symptoms. So now 7 years later, I have pretty much all the symptoms of PCOS, I still eat badly, using the excuse that PCOS makes it impossible to lose weight anyway, and dont exercise as I have issues with my feet, and back issues from having a car accident. The funny thing is, the weight causes all of these things to be a problem.
Here come the next excuses, I work full time and study full time. Yes its busy. BUT...like everything I leave studying til last minute so I actually have heaps of time. And the latest one..I drive an hour each way to and from work...oh boohoo, Im home by 5 most days, that's heaps of time.
so here I am, nearly 30 and way too unhealthy. Hubby and I desperately want a family, but now suffer infertility, and we kept saying we needed to make changes, and after 6 years of pining for a child we are so far away from there.
I have now started making changes..and I want this to work. I want children, I want to be back in a size 12-14, and a want to have the energy to do all the things I want to do. eg hiking, exploring, kayaking, jogging, walking, cycling etc oh and a gorgeous wardrobe
I want to stop being lazy...cos that what it comes down to..I need to stop being LAZY.
The adventure starts now...
moby
xoxo
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