Im struggling

I'm struggling a bit with life at the moment. Having a bit of anxiety and not so much in giving up on the world, but more just dissatisfaction of where I am at. I know that I can change it, I know I will, but it all seems too overwhelming.

My ideal me
Making $80-$130K a year...yes I am aiming high..I capable of this
Settle into a career - do I want to continue with counselling or do I want to do project management?
I want to be thin....ok so not super thin, but fairly thin. a size 10 would make me very very happy
I want to be elegant and graceful...
I want to have a wonderful marriage where the same issues dont keep coming up and not get fixed...(beating my head against a brickwall)
I want to live life...not just watch it rush by. We are nearly in June..I have no idea where the first 5 months have gone, I don't even have photos...I always have photos :(

How can I get there...
I need to work out what I want to do and GO FOR IT. Have confidence I CAN DO THIS
Career...yeah I have no real definite answers to that. Once I have my counselling certificate I will reassess
Being thin...I am doing the 12wbt...This is going to get me there
I want to be elegant and Graceful....keep working at it sunshine.
I think hubby and I need counselling together. Its not going to resolve itself..obviously. The only problem is that the counsellors keep telling us that its his problem he has to work on it, thats not going to help our marriage...we both need to work on this, and we need to work on our marriage. Dont get me wrong..its a pretty good marriage...I just dont like having the same trust issues coming up over and over again because he keeps lying.
living life....that one I reall do have to work on and work on finding a solution